Why Can’t I Leave

Day 3,808, 20:25 • Published in USA USA • by Melissa Rose
Rather Be
We're a thousand miles from comfort, we have traveled land and sea
But as long as you are with me, there's no place I'd rather be
I would wait forever, exalted in the scene
As long as I am with you, my heart continues to beat
I have done a plethora of things in erep. I have tried or done most everything and am fighting to find meaning in it all. Why do I play? What am I evening doing here? What I’ve found is that there is no meaning. It’s just a chat room these days with some shiny buttons to click. Is that enough?

I think it is

I have been a fed for the majority of the time I’ve played. I think I’ve told this story before so I am not going to bore you with it again. I’ve discovered that I can’t quit. I’ve tried, but I keep coming back or never really entirely leave. This last year has probably come the closest that I will ever come to “quitting.” I am going to be here until they shut off the lights, and even then I will probably stick around on discord chatting with everyone. Why? Because. I mean do we even need the game anymore. Yeah, we can click a couple of cool little buttons but do we need to.


The only thing that is even worth a "game" is Congress. Sure they are annoying sometimes and they rip on each other, but they are all pretty awesome people. So I fight to make it on the congress list because that is the only “game” thing worth doing.

But wait

It is the only “game” thing worth doing. Hmmm

This game is much more than a game. It is an group of friends in a chat program. I can’t think of many people that I don’t enjoy at least talking with, and I know, for the most part, they will always be there.


I’ll be here after they turn the lights off as long as there is a chat program with these people in it.

Even Pfeiffer

Thank you BigC for reminding me why I am here.

You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing that we call 'failure' is not the falling down, but the staying down.

Mary Pickford