If there are no dogs in heaven, then when i die i want to go where they went..

Day 4,947, 06:46 • Published in USA USA • by PlasticAlley

Today, i visited again my mother's grave.

In about a month and a half from now,
(20th of July) one full year will have passed since her death.

Visiting her grave, is something i do whenever i can.
I still "talk" to her, trying to keep her up to date
with what is going on..

I like remembering people that i have lost in my life.
It makes me feel that i keep them alive somehow..

Habits and behavioral patterns is what keeps us going
but also makes each of us unique as well..

Today during my regular friend list cleanup in eRep,
i realized i lost another 30+ people.

The weird thing is, that these "friends" were not people
i have met and had very few interaction with most of them.

The only thing out of the ordinary i did today,
is that i also deleted all the dead people who i have interacted with
and also all the dead people that i kept in my friend list out of respect..

After deleting these people, i feel i have lost a piece of me too..
Although we never actually met, they have all played a part in my life.

As the years go by, losing people has started to somehow create a void in me..

They say that people leave us, when they have completed their task
and we no longer need them or we have no more use for them anymore..

Even if it is true, i would still love to hug my mother one more time,
talk to some of the people that have gone away, even play with the pets
that have blessed me with their lives, by simply being next to me..

None of that is possible..

So, i am still here