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In case you're just catching this now, please read first the other parts:
* Part 1
* Part 2
* Part 3
* Part 4
* Part 5

I was debating with a friend whether I would try writing my failed love story with a girl we will hide in the code CM. That friend said I should try, since it is how I moved on in the past, but I am too shy to post it in a blog or in social media, so I decided to use media here in Erepublik, of which will serve as my sort of "test audience" on how people will respond (as comments or PM) to teenage love stories (Yes, I'm just turning 18, but my age had nothing to do with my administration skills). Besides, its been the holiday season.

You must understand though that I am hiding all of the persons' names in initials, including mine. Deal with it for now, since I have no time thinking of pseudonyms. Besides, medyo sinipag ako ngayong tapusin na 'to.

Thanks for making this the second top article in Philippine media for December 6, 2013. For that, I'd betray some photos now. 🙂


STATEMENT! I don't exactly know now why she commented that in this photo 3 years later, perhaps because that's what I answered when one of her friends asked me in 2nd year HS if I love CM. But yeah, we're both there, from 2nd year HS. Just have the honor to find me on the right side (with the Ninoy-like pose) and CM on the left side of the photo. (Please do not misuse the image for bad intentions or purposes.)

Prologue to Shame

After the incident in Part 5, I remained dormant, quietly loving CM. Everything I wrote and drew after Code Antony, I dedicated to her. One example was ProMoFun, which I finished July 2010 (which you can search in F😎. By this time, I had new friends, who were girls, like AA and EDC. Our batchmates would see us together some of the time and form hearts with their hands, something like that. They literally linked me with those girls, but nothing that time can stop me from loving CM.

Some months later, around December 2010, I noticed my classmates were talking of me. I asked why. They sai😛 Wala na daw boyfriend si CM ah. Alam na, AR. If you know me, you know I'm always late in news like these, so I presume that by this time, it has been around a month or so that they broke up.

Isn't it that what I wanted? For her to be available? For a moment there, I felt happy and that was like music to my ears. But, the memory of that night we last texted (as seen in Part 4) still lingers. How could I forget that? She literally busted me and my chances for her dropped to a complete minimum. Thus, I didn't rush that month. I waited to see for myself if the rumors were true... and they were. No gift from him to her this Christmas Party. I never saw them together again, literally. I should know, because I was there with my friends GS and LV that year. However, I did not stoop to the level of stalking. My conscience cannot carry that thing.

I thought then that if I were to ask her again, it should be more personal, not just through text or chat (which can be considered rude really). However, December is too soon. Surely she had been hurt of what happened. They were more or less 2 years together so it should be. Inisip ko nga kung ako yung naging panira eh, pero nanahimik naman na ako ah? I never knew anyway.

2011 na. I first planned to do that live talk thing on her birthday, which as I said before, was on January 22. However, that was a Saturday. I'm not a guy who goes to the house of the girl just to embarrass her to her family (who I believe never knew me anyway), though I actually knew where she lives in Parang, Marikina and I almost dared to go there.

However, January 22 was a Saturday, and on the 21st, I wasn't really prepared. The following week, the 28th, I turned out penniless. Too much expenses were made for school work at the time. What can I do now?

The Six Roses of Shame


Graduation picture of AA and EDC. AA was on the left, EDC on the right. Incidentally, AA was actually our Miss e-Philippines in the 2013 contest.

I was dismissed early the following school day, January 31. It was a Monday. I sat in a plantbox with AA. The plantbox was directly on the view of CM's room. Since she's a girl, I kept asking AA what she thinks CM would like. Furthermore, I told her I want to give her some flowers as a belated happy birthday gift. AA told me something like this: Ba't di mo gawin? Ayan lang siya o. Stop speculating on what will happen. It just stays until you do it.

I required all the courage and kapal ng mukha that I can muster.

I made up my mind then, and I decided to do it. It was aroundd 5 pm, some 30 to 40 minutes before CM's dismissal. I was with AA and we rushed towards the school gate. The nearest flower shop was around half a kilometer from the school gate. It was around this time when EDC spotted us and asked why we were on such a hurry. AA explained the situation, and EDC happily joined the party.

Some ten minutes later, we reached the flower shop. I scrapped all the money I had, which was around 150 pesos then. I asked them what flowers do girls usually like. EDC said red roses are always alright. AA like carnations, but since carnations are too expensive (250 pesos for six), I went for the red roses.

Now, the vendor told me that the roses were 180 PESOS! Ano pa ba? E di nakipagtawaran na ako. It was around 5:20 pm when I already got the roses for 150 pesos, joined in by a plastic cone and covered with Manila paper. I went back to school holding those flowers behind my back, and I had two girl escorts with me. I was walking fast, hoping no one would really notice since some sections were already dismissed way before this time anyway.

I'm not even halfway to their section, which was some 300 meters away, when two other girls, who we will hide in the code KR and DA, saw me and became intrigued by the large Manila paper. Anak ng bayan naman. They saw the roses and told me they would also ACCOMPANY me to CM. They were, at this point, giving me advice on what to do. They say I should straighten my posture, give out a nice handsome smile so as not to reduce my image to a maniac (I don't really smile that good then), etc, etc. They also removed the Manila paper.


KR, who was also my classmate in 3rd year HS. Here, she's performing in a college concert in UST.

KR murmured something like this: Kung ganito kalaki ang gagawin ng lalaki para sayo, siya na siguro ang "pinakamagandang" babae sa campus. She then told me that she would answer any guy (which seemed really to be a direct attack to me) who gives her something like that. Ano, sayo na lang? Landi mo lang, ano? Wag kang magloko ng ganyan. I'm all for CM and even if I had four gorgeous girls as escorts, I won't give up this endeavor. DA said, "Answerte naman ni CM, may ganitong nanliligaw sa kanya. Haba ng hair."

Well, KR once said in a FB status na umaasa siya sakin. That was 2011 though. I reduced it to nothing but a prank.

I was almost exact on time, 5:40 pm, but of course, as with any class, the teacher goes out first. She's our Trigonometry teacher (a subject I really never had flying colors) and she saw the roses. She gave me that smile na para bang siya yung bibigyan ng bulaklak. I just said, "Good afternoon, ma'am." She went on her way without looking back. Na-disappoint yata or what. I never knew anyway, but I was glad my grade improved after this incident.

CM's classmates were scrambling to go out and give me enough space to go in their room. I also saw many of our batchmates, as well as the canteen staff, running to see what I'm actually going to do. As I went inside the room, there was CM who was fixing her purple bag. Hindi yata natunugan yung mangyayari, until she noticed many people outside, peering through the windows and doors. And then, there was I, in front of her, and the closest I could have been to her.

She smiled a bit. Baka kinilig ng onti. I knelt down and handed her the flowers. She was like: No, don't kneel down. Just hand it to me normally.

So, I stood up. She received the roses and put it beside her bag. The people were so noisy, there were phone cameras around and the guys were shouting: Will you be my Valentine na! And our talk, the second time only ever since, went on something like this (not verbatim):

Me: Will you be my Valentine? (the audience went ecstatic and were shouting, sasagot na yan, oo na yan)
CM: Um, kasi, I don't think I'm ready to have someone to spend this Valentines.
Me: Oh... Ano, pero Prom kaya? Gusto mo maging date ako?
CM: Ano, siguro... (and the audience became noisy again)
Me: So, sige. I'd wait for your confirmation. Gusto mo ako na magdala ng bag mo palabas?
CM: Ah, no, ok lang. Magaan lang naman bag ko ngayon. Mas mabigat yata ung sayo.

True enough, she had only one bag, but I had two. I went out first, and I was met with cheers and all. I received praises from my girl escorts most especially. I was like the hero of guys in the campus. I think more than a hundred actually peered in to see that happen. A huge crowd, considering our school population was only around 800. CM went on her way with her friends, and I just looked at her as she left. She carried the flowers with her, almost hugging it. She didn't throw it in the nearby pond or something like that.

I said to myself while smiling a bit: "Sabi ko kung hindi niya tanggapin, ibigigay ko na lang sa rebulto ni Rizal sa labas ang flowers... Sorry na lang muna, Rizal. Pag 150 mo na lang siguro."


End of Part 6

This love story lasted 4 years, 5 months, 1 week, which actually just finished a few days back. Wala na nga lang munang spoiler. Part 6 only covered 6 months. I'm not sure if I'd finish it, though. I have a busy schedule. Still, if you want the subsequent parts, I shall do my best to write it for you. Sorry if I had limited pictures. Nauubusan na nga ako. Kaya lang, wala tayong magagawa dyan eh. I may still try to give some of her images in the following parts for the sake of writing and the readers' visual pleasure (though she might really hate me more for this). My Facebook friends, though, could try search who CM really is. Just don't be cocky about it without my consent.

Most importantly, I needed the feedback. Thank you in advance.

Have a happy December ahead!