Withdraw From Lyfe

Day 3,348, 06:35 • Published in USA USA • by Goddess Dilvany




I still keep a cigarette in my pocket, despite quitting for over 10 days now. I like the idea of being able to smoke at any time, but choosing not too.

I still have the contact information for people I should of long kicked out of my life. I like the idea of being able to return to past mistakes, but choosing not too.

On a new path of sobriety is quite hard. Someone suggested I go hangout with people who have also choose this lifestyle. Isn't that a good way to meet addicts to go on benders with?

I find my self repeatedly infatuated with this girl who is unable to love anyone. Every time we hangout it is the most anti-climactic experience ever.

People who count the minutes since the last time they have seen their daughters are hard to be friends with.

The only time I feel at home is really away from home. I am a social outcast in my own neighborhood.

I have been to mean to people, life is too short to hate. But I know I will hate again.

L. Ron Hubbard's Affirmations is one of the greatest insights into theology.

Why should I take advice from an experienced middle aged man? Isn't this like taking shopping advice from someone who just sunk their savings into a pyramid scheme?

I read Sartre and Camus, but still feel like a slave to my biology.

I am optimistic about life.