Pogledaj me u oci....

Day 1,959, 13:01 • Published in Serbia Serbia • by Panda monium


Jos jedna u nizu onih noci ispunjenih praznim pogledom koji se gubi negde,a kao sto nikada nisam ni znao ni sada ne znam gde je taj pogled upucen...

U praznu daljinu nicega!!Gde ce se uskoro i izgubiti...

Voleo bih kada bih imao koga da pitam,ali niko od ljudi koje znam na moje pitanje nema odgovor...

Hoce li taj glupavi vremenski ciklus,taj zacarani krug,da stane??Hoce li prestati vec jednom tuga i nesreca da se smenjuju u nizu i hoce li naici nesto bolje...

Ne samo za mene vec za sve nas!!

Da li medju vama ima neko ko za sebe moze reci da je srecan i da nema nikakvih problema??

Ako ima neka napusti prostoriju,nadje sebi bolje drustvo i ostavi nas na miru da tugujemo u svojoj nesreci!!I kako on u opste postoji...

Na koji nacin se izborio da nemam nikakav problem u zivotu i srecno zivi??

Maaa bas me briga za njega!!Nije on nas...Mi braca i sestre nesrecnici necemo da se mesamo sa njima!!Dovoljni su nam nasi problemi bez da razmisljamo o tome kako on nema nikakvih teskoca u zivotu...

Boris se,padas,gubis...Podignes se iz prasine i nastavljas da se boris da bi ponovo nekom zlotvoru dozvolio da te porazi i pruzio mu to zadovoljstvo da te gleda kako lezis u prasini...A onda povremeno dodje neka pobeda jer pukim slucajem tvoj protivnik je veci nesrecnik i od tebe...Nemoj da se brines uvek se nadje neko ko je rodjen sa manje srece od tebe,tako da se pomalo raduj!!Nisi najgori...Ako to vec moze da bude neka uteha!!

HOCU DA BUDEM SRECAN!!!
A kako to da postignem??

E to vec ne znam...Mozda samo treba dovoljno da zelim??

Ahaaa....Zar je moguce da moze da se zeli vise od ovoga??Ako jeste onda je to za mene nemoguca misija...

Kazu i da treba malo bolje da pogledam oko sebe i tako su mi vece sanse da vidim neku srecu koja se tu negde krije!!!Sto vise gledam sve groznije stvari vidim...Pa to ima samo kontraefekat...

Izgleda da je najbolje da prestanem da se osvrcem oko sebe,postanem gluv na sve zvukove koji se sire kao zla kob i zablenem u belinu plafona...

Mozda nesto pametno vidim u njoj...

Ili ipak da svi skupimo dovoljno snage,protivnika svog pogledamo u oci i nadjemo u njemu prijatelja...Sta znas mozda i uspe...U svakom slucaju vredi pokusati!!

Look into my eyes

Another one of those nights filled with void gaze fading away somewhere out there. I never knew, and I still don't, where that view is heading...

To empty faraway of nothingness! Where it will die away soon after...

I'd gladly ask someone who knew, but none of the people known to me have the answer to my question...

Will recurrence of this stupid time cycle, this... enchanted circle, ever stop? Will sorrow and happiness ever stop replacing each other, and allow for something better to emerge...

Not just for myself, but for all of us!

Is there anyone amongst you who can say he is fortunate and has no problems at all?

If there are such, let them leave this room, find a company that suits them better, and leave us alone to grieve in our woe! And how is it even possible for such a person to exist...

How in the world did he ever manage to achieve a life without a single problem and to live happily?

You know what? I don't freaking care about them!!! They're not of our kind... We are brothers and sisters in grief, and we've no intention of mingling with them! Our problems are enough - we don't need pondering over how is it possible for these individuals to face no difficulties at all in their lifes, on top of our own torments...

You struggle, you fall, you lose... You stand up from the dust, get back up on your feet, continuing your struggle, only for some evil-doer to defeat you and enjoy watching you lying in the dust yet again... You snatch a victory every now and then, when you run into a foe who's misfortunate even more than yourself... Don't you worry - you might not have been born under a lucky star, but there's always someone whose star is even more unlucky than your. So rejoice! A bit... You're not the undermost out there... If it's any consolation.

I WANT TO BE HAPPY!!!
But how to achieve that?

That's the hard part - I don't know... Maybe I just ought to wish for it hard enough?

Yeeeah... As if it were possible for one to wish harder than this... If it were, though - it would be mission impossible for me, it seems...

They tell me I ought to take a better look around myself - that's what ought to increase my chances of finding some sort of happiness hiding out there somewhere! Well, the closer I look, the more terrible things I see... So it just backfires, every time...

Perhaps I should stop looking around myself, become deaf to all those sounds that spread through like ill fate, and start gawking at my ceiling's whiteness...

I might note something worth noticing in it... Something wise...

Or, rather, maybe if we all gathered enough strength and pulled ourselves together, looked our foe straight in the eye, and found a friend in him... Who knows, it might actually work... Worth trying, in any case!


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