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He knew where he was going. Even without looking. The scent that that place was full with brought back all memories, and it all seemed like time stopped 10 years ago... Those 10 years ago.

He parked car and stepped out. Going through his hair, trying to untangle it, he looked all over the park. Same benches, same paths, same pain he felt.
-Stupid memories...No need to do this, Bryan, no need!
That was lie. No matter how much he hates it, he knew it was only way, the way it's meant to be.

Time couldn't ease it. Not like pain. Pain wasn't there long time ago. But fear... That son of a bi*ch came to stay forever. But what was he scared of then?
Scared of losing her? Not like he had any power over that. And now... Now when it was all part of past, why he was still trapped in it?
-Will you ever forgive me? Will you ever let it go?
But most of all he was wondering
-Will you wait for me over there?



-I know I could do something.- he whispered to himself. That thought was all he was thinking about last 10 years. Everyone told him that nothing couldn't help her, but deep inside his heart and mind he knew, they all lied.



He lit cigar. Taking smoke deep inside his lungs he thought about how much she hated smoking. He should quit, but not now. Something was needed to fill up emptiness inside him. At least for moment. Coughing made him smile...
-This will end soon, just wait for me.



The park was quiet. His thoughts were loudest thing there. With his eyes wandering into darkness, he wondere😛 "Will she come out? Should I wait?" He knew it was crazy enough to be here, but thinking about something that impossible was way to much. But, what else he had?
His soul was empty, dark. She possesed him.



He knew nothing gonna be the same ever again. Those 10 years passed by, but sorrow never did. Loneliness was killing him. Not that he was alone. But no friend or any woman would ever fill her place. Place where she used to be.
-Have you found someone, Sally? Do you feel better now, after all these years?- he asked but noone in empty park answered.
-Is it anything worth fighting for now? I am scared! I am lost. I am exhausted. Sally I need you so much now...-he almost yelled.
With calmed voice he kept talking
-Sorry my dear, I lost it. I lost it all that day, 10 stupid f*cking years ago. We will be together again, I know. Soon my darling.



He reached for his pocket on jacket. Picture was there, like it used to be all this time.
"Bryan & Sally" was written on back. She wrote it, he tought. He could still remember that time she gave it to him. On this very bench, not much more then 10 years ago. They looked so happy, so much in love. "Young couple with bright future", that's how everybody used to say. Tears... Oh no, he was nothing afraid more then showing emotions in public. But, what a heck, he was alone. And he didn't care. Then he remembered, letter. He still had it. That letter she gave him last time he saw her. He shouldn't read it before she leave, she says. Now he got mad on himself for letting her stop him from reading it there. Even now, he remember it without reading:
"Dear Bryan. I will try not to sound pathetic, but you really are the best thing ever happend to me. I love you, more than you can imagine. I know that you love me too. But there is something you don't know. I am sick. I got diagnosed cancer and if doctors are right, I don't have more than a week to live. I am going to my mother. Please, forgive me, but it would be hard for me to be with you when it happends. Sorrow in your eyes would killed me, and yes I know that someting is already doing it. Don't be mad on me. I would always be there. I will wait for you.
Love you, Sally"
After finishing letter he was shaking. He felt his heart breaking all over again. But he was sure now, everything will be fine soon. And at that moment, he almost could see her again, her eyes, her smile...
-I knew you were waiting for me... I knew it. Oh Sally, it was so hard living without you. I love you baby, I love you so much.
If anyone was there that night, he would think that Bryan gone crazy talking to himself...
They found him in the morning, lying on the bench, holding picture in one and letter in the other hand. He looked like he fall asleep, so peaceful, with big smile on his face.


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