eRepublik Saved and Changed My Life
Robert Grosseteste
Okay,
So a few weeks ago, can't put my finger on the time exactly, I was extremely depressed. My brother was doing drugs and about to lose the custody of his children. My mom and dad were drinking again. I was drinking more heavily than I ever had. My step-mom as always was using me as an indispensable scape goat for her problems. Though this may not be the most tolerable subject ever I was depressed thinking that because of my sexual preferences I may never have kids and may never be accepted by my parents, family, and friends. Upon all this my grades were down in school and I just had this "I don't care anymore" strategy to everything I did.
The one place where I could really be myself and people, or at least the majority of them, wouldn't care or would be supportive was eRepublik. In particular at the time I was most involved in ST6 and the Libertarian Party. If I had to vent or needed advice the people on these IRC rooms were always capable of helping.
One night after arguing with my mother for an extended amount of time trying to defend my older brothers' actions, having his first one night stand in a sort of vengeance of the breakup of a two year long relationship, my brother (this one does not have kids, doesn't do drugs, he is a Freshman at Ball State University) said to me upon leaving to go back to college "see you fa**ot." I was very depressed that night and came onto IRC, this night the libs especially were willing to talk to me. The next day with the help of the libs advice I finally came out to my mom and the next day to my friends.
Well, the next blow to my psyche came when my mother implied that I shouldn't be sure about my sexuality because I was a "virgin" ... I became very depressed thinking about this and I also found out that my boyfriend had been hiding from me that he had Diabetes. I was on the brink and had actually planned out how I was going to end my life. I guess out of a sort of last call I got on the IRC to the few people I felt understood me. ST6 members and Libertarian Party members flew to my rescue... they made me face the facts. Life would be worse for the ones I loved if I killed myself.
This is a testament to this game, this group of people in America, ST6, and the Libertarian Party. They have been such a supportive group that they were capable of helping me overcome real life problems.
Thank you eRepublik
Thank you eAmerica
Thank you Seal Team 6
Thank you Libertarian Party
Thank you Mizu
Thank you Deleruin
Thank you Clemens
Thank you EVERYONE
All these comments are fine examples of support & so I don't have to continually thank you in advance to all of you!!!
I think I may be the first one to say this in eRepublik... but thank you for life,
Robert Grosseteste
****I'd suggest to anyone that wants to take part in wartime activies and recieve an amazing eRepublik and real life support system to become part of Seal Team 6 by messaging Julian Mizu.****
Comments
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I am sure others feel that way as well.
I voted...
Glad you didn't kill yourself! What is your bro taking at BSU?
It's so sweet 🙁
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ST6LibsMAXXXX
Kepp your head up man, things always eventually get better.
Kylero - Originally planned for architecture but he read a book on why you shouldn't become one and now plans to major in Psychiatry.
Joe - Thank you (prime example of support)
I'm glad that you have found something that makes you feel happy and accepted. There is no greater feeling than when you realize that someone cares about you.
V & S
I for one know i enjoy having u as a brother in arms in ST6 Robert and I'm also sure we're here if u need anything else!
Architecture eh? I just applied today for BSU's Masters of Urban and Regional Planning program, which is in the same department. Good school?
damn, so its not just a game....voted
Kylero - Great school especially if you like parties, or at least ones in which you know people.
Niko - No, this is much more than a game to me now.
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Robert, I have to say I wouldn't know what to do with my NAU class without you 🙂
I'm thankful you decided to stay in the Real World 🙂
Erepublik saved your life?
Cool
Good luck dude. Suicide only seems like a good idea when you hit bottom but life is not always bad. Things get better if you dont lose yourself in the pain.
This is really touching. 🙂
Good Luck in RL.
thanks guys
I am glad you decided not to do it, just keep moving on, it may seem bad now, but you got your whole life in front of you.
Robert was one of those people you just knew would be involved in everything. He's always asking if anyone needs help, or something to be done. Really a great person and I'm happy to know him. I cannot imagine the emotional issues that coming out would cause, tied into all the other angst of being young. May sound contrite but I don't mean it that way.. but damn proud of you Rob!
things only go up from here man
I am glad you didnt follow through with the attempt. Dont know you in RL, but if youre half the great guy there that you are here then youre a lot better than most of us ha.
Glad to keep you with us. Keep your head held high 🙂
Good for you! Erepublik is good for something apparently. Good luck getting you life back on track.
Were here when you need us, and I'm always willing to be honest with you. o/
Absolutely moving. Don't let life's trolls control your destiny. Chart your own path.
I'm glad you were able to let out your feelings Robert. I'm glad that you decided to stay with us.
I would miss you!
And so would ST6!
And so would everyone in the Erepublik world, i'm sure.
to the last 9 comments, thank you. this is yet another time when ur spirit of brotherhood is showing thru.
Yeah, a Ball State University student would say that. There inconsiderate bigots (sitting next to a Ball State student right now). Anyways, this may be a good place to escape, but depression will always be with you if you don't fix/work on your RL problems...simple advice, but true. Video games are not a replacement (Talking to you "Second Life" users).
That sucks man. Good luck, and good luck to your bro. Hope he gets custody.
Voted. Thanks for sharing that. Things do get better.
Solid evidence that this game can do some amazing things for people.
Life will get better. Living in misery for a little while is better than dying in it forever. Good luck.
Support sent from eCanada. Keep moving forward, friend.
say thanx to phoenix, due to its role in erepublik of keeping the game interesting 😉
voted, my frien😛)
If you ever need anything let me know.
O7 Robert! Good to still have you here!
Side note: I thought you were joking about being gay 😛
Now that's heavy stuff.
Glad you're still around 🙂
Life sucks, but if it's one thing I have learned is what you just di😛 Occupy your time with something you enjoy, to be yourself, and to be open with others. That's the key to enjoying life and getting through the rough patches.
Good to hear, and hope you continue to be awesome 😃
Beautiful story, thanks for sharing. Things will definitely get better, and the worst is behind you.
The President just told me to keep on truckin, will do. 😃 o7
You're very lucky to have such good friends here.
Robert, you are more than welcome to ask this Sh*thead for advice on #NAU or #NAU-Journalism. If I knew you were in such straits, I would have reached out to you a long time ago 🙂
Keep your head up and you'll land on your feet
Lt. Scheisskopf
Glad you are still around RG!
Voted. Keep on keepin' on man!
Robert,
Nothing but ♥, my friend.
Respect
The hubs and attended BSU. Glad you are feeling better about life.
dud had no idea your life was so bad. that said you are now even more awesome for being awesome already despite the hardship and messed up family.