In case you're just catching this now, please read first the other parts:
* Part 1
* Part 2
* Part 3
* Part 4: Last Text
* Part 5
* Part 6: Six Roses of Shame
* Part 7
* Part 8: Senior Senior Prom
* Part 9: First Lunch
I was debating with a friend whether I would try writing my failed love story with a girl we will hide in the code CM. That friend said I should try, since it is how I moved on in the past, but I am too shy to post it in a blog or in social media, so I decided to use media here in Erepublik, of which will serve as my sort of "test audience" on how people will respond (as comments or PM) to teenage love stories (Yes, I'm just turning 18, but my age had nothing to do with my administration skills). Besides, its been the holiday season.
Congratulations to this series because it is now the top entry in Yahoo and Google when you search the worst love story of our generation. We have made a statement with your utmost support, and I thank you. This is the last issue, but I think its not the best among the series.
"At first, I really never wanted to read it. Its just about her, but now I'm a fan." --Liana Paldrov, former Finance Minister
"Since Al Raposas started his article series The Worst Love Story of Our Generation, I have been motivated to start writing these kinds of articles too." --Boy Pick Up, former President
Thanks for making this the second top article in Philippine media for December 12, 2013. For that, I'd betray some photos now.
CM with me, based on the first Troublemaker photo of JS and Hyuna. Yeah, I know. I dreamed too much. I used it for a speech in Comm 3. (Please do not misuse the image for bad intentions or purposes.)
Another year passed and the same sequence as in Part 9 followed. We never had lunch again, and I usually eat alone. Well, I sometimes found it fun to go out by yourself, mainly because you can really go on budget without friends that tempt you, directly or indirectly, to spend. I tell you, they're not real friends.
Wala tayong magagawa. Heto pinili niya at hindi ako. What does e-Philippines think?
So, to make the long story short, 2013 na.
As I was walking near the Palma Hall Annex (PHAN), a friend from high school we will hide in the code SS saw me and asked me to accompany her.
Me: Samahan ka saan?
SS: App orientation ko kasi sa UP Kustura. Ayoko nga pumunta pero maraming kakilala natin ang mapilit eh.
Me: So, ano naman dapat kong gawin?
SS: Hindi ka pa ba nag-o-org?
Me: Hindi. Ikaw ba?
SS: Hindi rin. Haha. First org ko kaya ito. Sama ka na kasi. Nakakahiya pumunta ng mag-isa. Saka, nandun si CM.
Me: Sige na nga. Wala naman akong gagawin eh. (a supposed meeting was still around an hour away, so there)
To make the story short, we went to the UP Kustura tambayan and we listened to a 30-minute orientation done by a Kustura member there which I don't remember the name. I think he was Aron or something. There's also a guy I used to call MVP 8 points, because when he was my classmate in PE Basketball, he scored 8 of our 23 points during the finals day, all by layups.
Aron: Ikaw, di ka ba sasali?
Me: Anong ako?
Aron: Technically, parang naorient ka na rin eh.
SS: Oo, sali ka na. Alam mo ba kuya, sumama lang yan kasi sinabi kong makikita niya si CM!
Me: Psst. Ano yan?
Aron: Si CM? Bakit, ano ba pangalan mo?
SS: Weh, AR. CM ka pa rin ba?
Aron: Ha? Bakit? Anong meron sila ni CM?
SS: Crush niyan si CM simula pa nung high school eh.
MVP: CM ka pala ha.
Me: Tech. Wala kayong narinig.
MVP: Wala eh, nasabi na niya eh.
Aron: Haha. Sabihin ko nga sa kanya mamaya. Kilala mo ba si AR?
MVP: Pero di ba may boyfriend na yun?
SS: Oo nga, si MR. Kailan pa ba sila?
Me: 4th year pa.
Aron: Takteng yan. Alam na alam ah.
SS: Sabi sa inyo eh. CM pa rin.
Good thing for me, SS had to leave soon, as well as I because I was supposed to have a meeting in Palma Hall (PH, locally known as AS). I just got the number of SS so that we can go together for getting the sigsheet the next day. Ayoko rin pumunta ng mag-isa. Well, because I was technically oriented, and they gave a sort of shiny offer as compared to other orgs, I consented to join.
Me: Loko ka. Ba't mo sinabi agad sa kanila na may history kami ni CM?
SS: Meron naman talaga eh. Yie. Kinikilig na yan.
Me: Nako lang, pag nalaman niyan na mag-Kustura ako, aalis yan dun.
SS: Ow? Hindi naman siya siguro ganun. Mabait kaya siya.
Me: Pramis, ganun siya. Kahit nga magkasabay na kami sa jeep, di niya ako papansinin. O? Laban ka pa?
I got the sigsheet that day, but yes, we didn't meet there. I discovered through this lousy pamphlet that she was member of the Membership Committee, who actually screens applicants. ODK. Babagsak na ako nito sa application.
Later this day, I messaged her in FB (most verbatim it can get):
"can i have a word with you? I know ndi mo na naman ako rereplayan dito but i really need a word with you."
"I don't want to "demonize" you when I write my personal history by writing my own side only, so please... Please lang naman. I respect you and your side. Mag-usap tayo, ok? "
" I think we both believe that the past has come to past, and what I learned in history, we can learn and build from it."
She didn't reply. Just "seen".
She replied to my FB message for the first time since July 6, 2012. It was when she needed people to buy tickets from her for a concert.
"Hey! Haha. Kung ako sayo, deretsuhin mo na lang ako. Ano bang gusto mong sabihin? "
The same day, I replied.
"Talagang natuwa ka pa sa paligoy-ligoy ko ah. Pero, di ba alam mo naman yung gusto kong sabihin? Ano lang kasi, feeling ko kahit pagiging friends hindi pwede sa'tin. Ganun. So, ano masasabi mo naman tungkol dito? Sorry kung ganito ako mag-explica ng mga bagay pero pagbigyan mo na. Antagal naman na natin magkakilala. Haha."
"In the past two years of college kasi, feeling ko parang may nabuong sort of "cold war" between you and me. And, wala ba akong magagawa to patch up things, if ever totoo nga ito? I know you have forgiven me for that darn summer night na nakapagreply ka sa ibang tao, pero ba't ganito naman ngayon? Parang... Well, can't we be at least friends again?"
"And kung gusto mo talaga ng derechahang usapan, cge. Pwede din ba tayong lumabas some time in the near future? Kalungkot kasi na malapit na ang holidays and I'm always going out alone. And sometimes I think of you. Ayun. Gets mo naman di ba? Isa pa, alam ko namang wala kang feelings para sa'kin and may relationship ka na nga ngayon, and I respect that decision. However, I believe feelings do change and can't you give me a chance again to do so with you? O yan ah, mej derecho na yan. X)"
"And lastly, may nakuha ka bang keychain na isda 4 years ago?"
Almost a few hours after, she replied.
"Ok sige. Sana magets mo na iniiwasan kita. Kailangan ko pa ba sabihin sayo kung bakit? Inexplain ko naman na before na wala talaga diba? So pls, tigilan mo na ko... Harsh na kung harsh pero hindi ko alam kung pano ko sasabihin sayo nang walang harshness hayy. Hindi ko alam kung magiging close pa tayo as friends. maiilang lang ako sayo. sorry ah."
"kaya humanap ka na ng iba, pls lang. hindi ko obligasyon ung samahan ka lumabas dahil alone ka. bahala ka na kung anong gusto mong ilagay mo sa paper mo, and wala rin tayong dapat pag-usapan. kung sasali ka ng kustura, wala akong magagawa dun. but we're free to reject you. i hope dito na mag-eend to. good luck nalang and see you whenever. ge."
Well, she purposely avoids me then leaves a "see you whenever" clause? Niloloko mo ba ako? Inside, I was like: Walang kwenta ba yung nakaraang 4 years? Or ako ba talaga yung walang kwenta kaya ganito nangyari?? However, I got no guts, so I replied:
"thank you and God bless."
She quickly gave a reply.
"sige. God bless din! Don't worry, makakahanap ka rin ng right girl for you "
I didn't cry like in Part 4. I just can't sleep the night of December 1. I thought to myself that I really need to clarify some things. Did she make me a Public Enemy Number 2? Or worse, Number 1? I never had real enemies in my life, so it hounds me. Why would a person avoid me so much? Is there another reason besides making me her Enemy of the State? So, that day, I messaged her again.
"Just another thing, if we're not friends nor acquaintances, are we enemies? Mas masakit sa loob kung dahil lang naiilang ka sakin for multiple reasons that weren't specified, I will lose a friend of whom I had so much dreams with but never happened. What are we now?"
After an hour or so, she replied.
"di naman enemies. more on "magkakilala""
Inside, I was like: Wow, so degraded na ako ah. Magkakilala? Ni hindi man lang kami acquaintances dahil walang shared goal. Pwedeng yung pulubi sa Katipunan, kakilala rin. Si P-Noy, kakilala rin. Si Atty. Gregorio Bonifacio din! Nagkita kami sa conference so magkakilala kami? But again, I said to myself that I'm already an enlightened guy. I know I moved on. She had not, I guess. Maybe, the reader should decide. Still, I messaged again.
"Sorry it didn't work out for us."
She replied: "wag kang magsorry sakin. "
Why shouldn't I be sorry? I screwed it up. I tried improving myself para bumagay sana, but to no avail. Well, I didn't send any message anymore and that same day, I deferred from applying to UP Kustura. She wanted space, and I don't want to look like the fool. At long last, I accepted it was over.
I think it was a gradual acceptance, which really took me a time, but at least, natapos na din, di ba? I thought I can stay firm longer, hoping she'd fall for me in the end or something, but even the man with the hardest heart softens and weakens sooner or later.
My high school graduation photo with AA, your Miss e-Philippines for the 2013 contest. When asked what she thought of me and AA, because almost all our batch mates had their opinions, CM said: "Kayo ni Aliana diba? Haha yun yung naiisip ko"
This love story lasted 4 years, 5 months, 1 week, which actually just finished a few weeks back. Part 10 covered the last 12 months. Sorry if I had limited pictures. Nauubusan na nga ako. Kaya lang, wala tayong magagawa dyan eh.
Most importantly, I needed the feedback. Thank you in advance. Those who PM me who CM really is will have 100 CC. That's the least I can do for everything you have done to patronize this worst love story. But yes, no cheating.
Have a happy December ahead!
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