[CP] The Final Note
Day 1,750, 17:05
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by Minakami Suoh
END NOTE, AUGUST CP.
This will most likely be a tl;dr, but I'll appreciate those who do take the time to read this. Thank you.
Though I initially began this campaign with hopes of grand aspirations; a community that thrived and a powerful military, those hopes were dashed only days after I was elected into Presidency. Through crippling events that occurred in real life, I felt as if my world was crumbling in both. This world, and the one outside of it. I wasn't as strong as I thought I was, and I did allow myself to be a puppet. I relied too much on the strength of those with more experience of myself, and did not initially view my Presidency as something I needed to do along. If this month has taught me anything it is humility, and that yes. I am a second tier choice of a leader.
I wanted to do a lot for this country, because I do love it. Though after things hit the fan and I wasn't sure how to handle it, I did indeed make things worse. I broke under the pressure of personal matters and things to occur in-game, and I felt abandoned. For that, I apologize. I allowed my own emotions to cloud my judgement and my actions, and it drastically damaged the community. Who would have assumed my earlier comparison to rising as a phoenix from the ashes would be caused by my own hands.
I do not command much respect, and I am overlooked frequently. I am not someone that is unintelligent, nor am I not capable. I simply lack the drive to pursue things, to engage in this world completely. Because that's what this is - a world. I've been handling this as a game for a very long time, and therefore I only saw it as that until pressed with the responsibility of leading a whole nation, and being responsible for everything that has transpired. No matter what excuses I make, or who is to blame for everything that happened, I still hold the end call. I am still the person who could have disagreed with the notion of invading ROC, and for that I am responsible for the war. For that I apologize, to the people of Japan and to the people of the Republic of China.
This past month has taught me much, and has shown me many things about myself. Sadly I could not be as engaging as I'd like: I live states away from any family in the real world, and due to not having a job, it takes precedence over country management to find one. For that I am sorry, however I am glad that my insight allowed me to put Greatmoff in the position he is within as our Minister of Foreign Affairs and Representative in Circle of Trust (COT). This month has shown me that I am quick to give up when the pressure lets on, and that I allow myself to be consumed with guilt and regret to the point of not figuring out how to reconcile.
I hope that I will fix these traits, so that I can find my place in this world. I was desperate for a place to 'fit in' that I lost myself. While yes, I can be a bit prickly and I am someone that prefers to be around those who do not take this world as seriously as they do; the fact of the matter is it cannot thrive in a community that cuts down people simply for their tastes, or cuts down people for liking 'anime' or 'manga'. To be frank, it's literally the only thing Japan has going for it as a country, seeing as we're landlocked between much larger nations.
I hold no ill will towards the Republic of China for defending themselves and wiping us. To be upfront, sometimes I feel that many in Japan do not deserve to have a country, or to have a country as large as it is. Many of our citizens here are consumed with their own personal greed, and they don't care for a organized and active community, but rather medals and profit. For a country this small it is incredibly easy for any to gain a place within the government, but many don't attempt to find a place at all.
Very few try to get involved, and they simply complain about the things they dislike. The government is not a closed off playground, those who wish to help have always been capable of doing such. Activity is encouraged! How can you be proud of your country, or place in one, that has no place within the world? It feels that many of you are content with being a third world country so long as you have congressional seats to fill.
I will end it here, and that once more I am sorry for my actions that has lead us to this point. I do not have the audacity to ask you to forgive me or to expect it, nor do I have it to pretend as if nothing happened. It did occur, and I am acknowledging my faults. I hope that I can redeem myself, and that what little Greatmoff, DankChronic, and I has achieved will be enough for the future. I just hope that many of you will rise to the challenge and work with those of us who also love this nation, to ensure that it becomes a place where political parties do not function as feudal lords fueled by their own greed over national security.
I thank you for reading, and ten thousand years.
Kokawayoshi Nowe,
Emperor of Japan.
This will most likely be a tl;dr, but I'll appreciate those who do take the time to read this. Thank you.
Though I initially began this campaign with hopes of grand aspirations; a community that thrived and a powerful military, those hopes were dashed only days after I was elected into Presidency. Through crippling events that occurred in real life, I felt as if my world was crumbling in both. This world, and the one outside of it. I wasn't as strong as I thought I was, and I did allow myself to be a puppet. I relied too much on the strength of those with more experience of myself, and did not initially view my Presidency as something I needed to do along. If this month has taught me anything it is humility, and that yes. I am a second tier choice of a leader.
I wanted to do a lot for this country, because I do love it. Though after things hit the fan and I wasn't sure how to handle it, I did indeed make things worse. I broke under the pressure of personal matters and things to occur in-game, and I felt abandoned. For that, I apologize. I allowed my own emotions to cloud my judgement and my actions, and it drastically damaged the community. Who would have assumed my earlier comparison to rising as a phoenix from the ashes would be caused by my own hands.
I do not command much respect, and I am overlooked frequently. I am not someone that is unintelligent, nor am I not capable. I simply lack the drive to pursue things, to engage in this world completely. Because that's what this is - a world. I've been handling this as a game for a very long time, and therefore I only saw it as that until pressed with the responsibility of leading a whole nation, and being responsible for everything that has transpired. No matter what excuses I make, or who is to blame for everything that happened, I still hold the end call. I am still the person who could have disagreed with the notion of invading ROC, and for that I am responsible for the war. For that I apologize, to the people of Japan and to the people of the Republic of China.
This past month has taught me much, and has shown me many things about myself. Sadly I could not be as engaging as I'd like: I live states away from any family in the real world, and due to not having a job, it takes precedence over country management to find one. For that I am sorry, however I am glad that my insight allowed me to put Greatmoff in the position he is within as our Minister of Foreign Affairs and Representative in Circle of Trust (COT). This month has shown me that I am quick to give up when the pressure lets on, and that I allow myself to be consumed with guilt and regret to the point of not figuring out how to reconcile.
I hope that I will fix these traits, so that I can find my place in this world. I was desperate for a place to 'fit in' that I lost myself. While yes, I can be a bit prickly and I am someone that prefers to be around those who do not take this world as seriously as they do; the fact of the matter is it cannot thrive in a community that cuts down people simply for their tastes, or cuts down people for liking 'anime' or 'manga'. To be frank, it's literally the only thing Japan has going for it as a country, seeing as we're landlocked between much larger nations.
I hold no ill will towards the Republic of China for defending themselves and wiping us. To be upfront, sometimes I feel that many in Japan do not deserve to have a country, or to have a country as large as it is. Many of our citizens here are consumed with their own personal greed, and they don't care for a organized and active community, but rather medals and profit. For a country this small it is incredibly easy for any to gain a place within the government, but many don't attempt to find a place at all.
Very few try to get involved, and they simply complain about the things they dislike. The government is not a closed off playground, those who wish to help have always been capable of doing such. Activity is encouraged! How can you be proud of your country, or place in one, that has no place within the world? It feels that many of you are content with being a third world country so long as you have congressional seats to fill.
I will end it here, and that once more I am sorry for my actions that has lead us to this point. I do not have the audacity to ask you to forgive me or to expect it, nor do I have it to pretend as if nothing happened. It did occur, and I am acknowledging my faults. I hope that I can redeem myself, and that what little Greatmoff, DankChronic, and I has achieved will be enough for the future. I just hope that many of you will rise to the challenge and work with those of us who also love this nation, to ensure that it becomes a place where political parties do not function as feudal lords fueled by their own greed over national security.
I thank you for reading, and ten thousand years.
Kokawayoshi Nowe,
Emperor of Japan.
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I don't think anyone can call this a successful presidential term by any standard. I do think however that despite your making mistakes and acting rashly in cases, your heart was always in the right place. I don't think anyone can say you had malicious intent.
You are humble enough to admit when you made mistakes, we are all of us human. No one has a right to ostracise you or say you do not have a place in this community.
I thank you for the trust you placed in me.
Sorry things didn't work out for you Nowe, I really thought you were going to bring some good change to eJapan, but things went awry and as a result a lot of plans went out the door.
Still even after all that has happened you picked yourself up and owned up to your actions which few people can do. We're all human and sh*t happens, and you did your best after those unfortunate events,
You have earned my trust, and with that I wish you the best of luck, and hope to still see you around.
An aside given you mentioned how easy it is to get into government here:
You know, I miss the days of President Sumeragi and all the activity then. Some people say it wasn't very productive, but you know something, politics were enjoyable then and our community was rather active.
Nowadays, it's almost as if the political atmosphere of the community is slowly dying, we need new independent voices to step up and take the reigns, readers, I hope you see Nowe is hinting at this. For the Glory!
I agree that being a CP while trying to be a good one is an experience you should encounter at least once in your e-life.
+1 for the balls to man up and apologize publicly twice. All in all there WERE good points to the end of your term so it wasnt a total wash
Many ppl would just give up and run off after a meltdown. But you had the balls to both apologise sincerely for it, and to pick yourself up and get on with it. The appointment of Greatmoff was particularly inspired.
Frankly, there are still questions over your temperament for the big job and whether you can handle it. I would probably not vote you again. But kudos for trying your best, especially when all eJapan was out for your guts. xD
A phoenix is a great bird that rises from the ashes, becomes a beautiful thing and then goes back to ashes. Again and again.
It is both ashes and a beautiful bird.
Failures and successes.
I hope you continue to stay in eJapan.
And I wish you good luck in both worlds.
The mark of the immature man is that he wants to die nobly for a cause, while the mark of a mature man is that he wants to live humbly for one
It is not easy to do a reflection and I believe you have experienced a lot during this month. You got my vote.
Cheer up Nowe-Onii-san !
I'm sure Japan will rise again and I hope when it happens you'll be with us, smiling !!!
Voted and respect. You have recognized and admitted your mistakes, and that is honorable.