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In case you're just catching this now, please read first the other parts:
* Part 1
* Part 2
* Part 3
* Part 4

I was debating with a friend whether I would try writing my failed love story with a girl we will hide in the code CM. That friend said I should try, since it is how I moved on in the past, but I am too shy to post it in a blog or in social media, so I decided to use media here in Erepublik, of which will serve as my sort of "test audience" on how people will respond (as comments or PM) to teenage love stories (Yes, I'm just turning 18, but my age had nothing to do with my administration skills). Besides, its been the holiday season.

You must understand though that I am hiding all of the persons' names in initials, including mine. Deal with it for now, since I have no time thinking of pseudonyms. Besides, medyo sinipag ako ngayong tapusin na 'to.

Thanks for making this the second top article in Philippine media for December 5, 2013. For that, I'd betray some photos now. 🙂


A photo of her from 4th year HS. I'm not there, since we had different sections already. (Please do not misuse the image for bad intentions or purposes.)

School year 2010-2011 began that June. So, we're now 3rd year HS, and we had different sections, as expected. Now, one time that school year, I think it was around July then, when I was leisurely walking alone during lunch. GS and LV also had different sections then so we can't actually eat together then unlike in 2nd year. Lunch lasts for one hour or so. It was just then when her friends saw me, huddled together and actually walked towards me.

Knowing they are the close friends of CM, I ran throughout the campus. I know I can try outrunning them for the next 30 minutes less. My record that year, I ran 50 meters in 5.9 seconds, so there. I ran 1 kilometer in 4 minutes 35 seconds.

They split up and tried to trap me on the second floor. They blocked 2 of the 3 staircases of the school, but I managed to escape on the 3rd staircase. Now, back on the ground, they regrouped and just walked. So, I eased myself as well. However, beyond my knowledge, they were purposely trying to trap me again.

And I fell to the trap. I ran into our section, since it was not allowed to get into the room of other sections without permission. But, what I don't know, they had accomplices in the room who pushed me out of the room, figuratively, and they confronted me in one of the staircases.

They were around 3 or 4, and I was only one. I could have tried running away but to what extent? They could just recreate the trap again, if ever. I took all the courage I had and decided to stay.

Now, her bestfriend, FP (which turns out to be the crush of MY bestfriend, GS), asked me: Wala ka bang sasabihin?
I played dumb and answere😛 Na ano? Kanino?

And... the conversation went on like this (not verbatim):

FP: Naalala mo yung ginawa mo noong isang gabi kay CM?
Me: Anong ginawa ko? Walang nangyari samin.
FP: Feeler ka? Sagutin mo tanong ko.
Me: Okay na, sige. Ano naman dun?
FP: Alam mo bang pinaiyak mo siya dahil dun?

Now, the conversation starts to get tense. They all had bad looks at me, but I tried to remain in my usual happy disposition, as they had always knew me. Okay, they're friends. Sure. But, how could have they ALL knew that I did something bad to CM? Did she tsismis what happened as what she did with JS? I didn't want to conclude without enough evidence, though.

I mean, I haven't actually told anyone what happened, even to GS, because that would affect both me and her. Abroad na nga si GS, di pa rin niya alam eh.

Me: Ok, so what about that?
FP: Anong what about that? Akala ko ba mahal mo si CM? Bakit mo naman ginawa yun, ha?
Me: Nadala lang siguro ako... I mean, nagkakamali rin naman ang tao ah.
FP: Alam mo namang violence leads to more...
Me: Violence, okay. So, what do you suggest?
FP: Nandun malapit sa canteen si CM ngayon. Magsorry ka na and get it over with. Babantayan ka namin!

Nagsalita ang hindi gumamit ng violence. Well, iba-iba ang perspective ng tao sa ganyan eh.

I was around three or so steps away from CM. She was just looking somewhere else. I looked at her, and apologized. I said the lone word "sorry". Well, the bell rang at almost the same time so she probably didn't hear, but I think her friends did because they began to smile at me again.

That night, I went to FB chat and asked for forgiveness once more. In the end, I really can't take a firm stand for myself and became soft just because of her. I guessed then that that's what it really meant to be in love. You can keep on loving, hoping, that someday she'd be touched or something, but that could still be a long way, in this case. She didn't actually reply to that FB message, or to the next FB messages I sent throughout the school year, and she never gave me her number again.

Wala pa ngang "seen" noon, na-"seenzoned" na ako?

I had the chance, though, to know her new number, and I texted her, saying sorry again, but she never replied. What do I expect as a result with that very poor performance of mine?

Later on, just to relate with the topic, though we're actually skipping the timeline here... around 2012, I said sorry once more (I told the readers before that I'm not really that bad) through another FB message, and at last she replied something like this:

Okay lang. Lumipas na yun. Wag mo na isipin.

And it was accompanied with a smiley face.


End of Part 5

This love story lasted 4 years, 5 months, 1 week, which actually just finished a few days back. Wala na nga lang munang spoiler. Part 5 only covered 1 month. I'm not sure if I'd finish it, though. I have a busy schedule. Still, if you want the subsequent parts, I shall do my best to write it for you. Sorry if I had limited pictures. Nauubusan na nga ako. Kaya lang, wala tayong magagawa dyan eh. I may still try to give some of her images in the following parts for the sake of writing and the readers' visual pleasure (though she might really hate me more for this). My Facebook friends, though, could try search who CM really is. Just don't be cocky about it without my consent.

Most importantly, I needed the feedback. Thank you in advance.

Have a happy December ahead!