Not the best.. but still so much better!

Day 3,783, 04:04 Published in India India by Murthu

My 12th grades weren't that good. I was going through some issues that I used as silly excuses to not pay attention to my education. So I couldn't get into a good enough engineering college (I wanted to do engineering unlike millions who are forced by parents). I found out that engineering wasn't that very hard if you did not waste time in classes. I only required 50% attendance. So I would go to various cultural, tech and networking events, build contacts and was both having fun and gaining experience. Unlike most of my classmates who had their self-confidence and social skills sucked out of them in those 4 years. I became the best I had ever been at that point.



In my final semester, I got an actual internship at a management consulting firm that paid 10k per month for 3 days of 8 hours work. And two months after graduation, the company offered a full time position with a package similar to an average IIT graduate, that some of my friends still don't make even after 6 years of experience.



I worked for 2 years at the company. I was among their best employee with an offer to go to London and perhaps even manage their office after a couple of years of experience. But I became arrogant, I thought I could do more, plus it wasn't also a core job that I did my engineering for . Exactly a month before I had to go to London, I offered my resignation that pissed them off. I didn't quit on good terms, I didn't think I would need them again and assumed that I could get away by being a shitty person.




I started a small business that was in tune with my engineering education. Expecting to make it big immediately and then getting bought by Google and becoming a millionaire (if not a billionaire).



Not everyone succeeds.





For every 1 successful company, 19 fail or don't achieve as much success as envisioned.

I lost half of the money I saved in the 1st year. I didn't splurge on unnecessary expenses like a swanky office or extra staff and other general extravagance. The company even though making an income, couldn't balance out the expenses. Everyone told me to wind up, I had to let everyone go. It was just me, sitting there, paying rent, not generating anymore revenue. For the next two years, I was unemployed. Sitting at home. Doing nothing. Generally wasting life. The friends I thought I was better than, were moving in life and looked happier from my perspective. I was the loser who failed and was just sitting at home, doing nothing. My closed ones started making jokes at my expense.

For 700+ days, getting up-wasting the day-meals-sleep. People thought that I was enjoying the idleness. But no one knew that it was killing me inside. I could not get a job in my old company and they weren't exactly enthusiastic about giving me a recommendation.

I had everything. And lost it all to arrogance. How a simple little personality flaw caused my to pay with my most productive years and even affected my health.

I am doing better now. Not making as much money as 6 years ago but atleast I am not frustrated anymore. I also learnt not to compare myself with others and this has cause such a world of a difference. I want to diverge a bit here and say that don't be influence by stuff you see on social media, your friends living the ultimate life. It isn't real, and even if it is you'll be much more at peace if you train yourself to no bother about it.

I take joy in little stuff now. Time spent with my baby nephew, friends who still call and talk, the chilly chicken served at beach-side stalls, the new people I meet in real life and here. Just accepting your life as it is, taking joy from the smaller stuff and being truthful to yourself and others around will give you peace and strength to overcome the more difficult stuff when it knocks on your door. This doesn't mean that I am not ambitious anymore.. I still want to be a millionaire (billionaire).. 😛 It is just that it isn't the only thing I measure my peace and happiness with now.

When LordRajIndia asked this question here ---> https://www.erepublik.com/en/article/stop-what-you-are-doing-and-just-think--2667992 , I didn't think that I would actually write this long answer. I was going to post this in his comment but it then became a little too big.

Guys, It's a beautiful friday over here. I hope you have an amazing weekend. Your sorrows, your disappointments, frustrations and failures might have pushed to almost breaking point. But go out.. buy a cup of delicious tea, or a plate of chilly chicken/chilly paneer and give a thought about how right now.. you have everything to be happy.