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[JK] I'm not dead ... at least not yet!

Day 2,130, 15:19 Published in USA USA by John Killah

A wild JK Article appears? 😮

Quite an apt title imo … A lot of you don’t really hear from me anymore. Simply put, I kicked back from the game a fair distance, went pretty quiet on IRC and generally almost disappeared from view. The game had taken a huge toll on me and I inevitably felt the burnout, but i’ll dive into that in more detail in later on.

But for now, i’m still playing and still here xD

Why did you disappear?

The answer to this is pretty simple - The game was no longer fun or interesting. Battling the same problems day in, day out for the past several months had me feeling more and more frustrated and annoyed every log in. I kept it all in check for a while, never mentioned it to anyone, never thought about it too much … I can be like that, I store everything up, it’s rare you’ll see a genuine spontaneous combustion from me … I have private conversations with people for that xD!

The culmination was my last article all the months ago telling people I was retiring. I caught some flak for that, which was deserved and I accepted it … Hindsight and looking back says I should of at least TRIED to hang in for that month, help give the AMP some stability after a turbulent month. But the simple fact is I didn’t want to burnout and have a meltdown midterm and ruin everything the party had done to rebuild itself. Should I have resigned? No. But I chose the lesser of two evils in my opinion. I know it pissed some people off (Israel memorably told me in response to some observations I made about his PP run - Your political opinions are worthless to me because of what you did), but it had to be done.

Then of course, there was the people. Now, this doesn’t apply to everyone naturally … there were some who tried balancing it out for me by being their awesome selves, but the simple fact was the PTO had brought out the worst in a lot of people. In the 3 years i’ve played this game, I have never seen so many of you so ready to snap at one another over the smallest comments or insinuations. It saddened and angered me that we were supposed to be uniting and fighting the PTO but instead were falling to internal divisions, idiocy and trolling. From people condemning my own party for not seeing a PTO, to the uproar over people defeat in CP Unity Elections, to turning their backs on people because they decided to leave the country/game for a brief period.

The simple fact was that nobody was themselves and nobody feels exactly the same as another person. To attack someone simply because you don’t agree with what they’re doing isn’t sportsmanlike at all and certainly doesn’t belong in a game where thanks to Plato, the Community is what holds it together.

So, what did you do?

I cannot stress how good it is to take a breather. It’s hard to let go of your responsibilities (Both perceived and actual) and just, not care for a while … I certainly had trouble and was constantly checking my AMP’s leadership communications to make sure the party wasn’t gonna die. Eventually, you learn to stop fretting, step back and relax … it helps when you have people alongside you who aren’t begging you to come back, who understand why you left and just talk to you like a normal person.

I stopped being active in public chatrooms because I preferred to take the conversations to certain people in private rooms … not because I had things to say that I didn’t want other people to hear, but just because it’s nice not to have people dissect your every word trying to figure out how you are. Frank and honest conversations are the best in my opinion … lies, deceit and backstabbing have no place in the JK Household.

I even left an MU I helped set up and moved back to my original home … the National Guard. I’m sure there will be some “lolJCSfags” jokes, but the fact of the matter is, it’s where I always felt at ease and welcome and it was nice to sorter just get back to basics in the game and go back to where I eGrew up and started … Roots are comforting.

In the few months i’ve been gone, I no longer felt the stress that came with logging in daily and seeing a load of crap you didn’t wanna see. I’d log in, see something I disliked … and I’d shake my head, shrug and go about my day … I learnt to not let it bother me anymore. It’s allowed me to take stock of who I really appreciated in the game and who were just mere acquaintances and why I even bothered playing. I crafted new relationships with people and reaffirmed old ones with people I valued … it’s led to some interesting things that in turn have created instances i’m looking forwards to seeing 😃!

So why on earth have you made this ****** article?!

Honestly? Not entirely sure! I guess I just wanted to let people understand a bit more why it seemed like i’d disappeared into the Nether and vanished from existence. Well, there is also the fact that it’s sorter an announcement that … I’M BACK! xD!

Out of retirement? Not really. Politics was fun for a bit, but it’ll still be the same as when I left - Not for me. I’m too honest and not nearly conniving enough to cut it as a backroom politician.

I only play now because of friends. If you’re convinced you’re my friend, you are … if you question whether you are or not, you might have to reconsider your stance with me xD The community in this game have kept me going … chugging along at half speed relaxing and keeping what’s left of my sanity (A rare commodity in this game).

So take this piece of advice - If you start to feel like you’re going to smash peoples faces in or quit … take a break. Step back, chat only to people you enjoy speaking to, then come back in a couple of months time. I promise you it helps.

In other news, while the real JK isn’t American (If you didn’t know that … Oh jesus how could you not …), he DOES plan on visiting America in a weeks time! People close to me know where, when and why, but I don’t plan on making that all public … A man has to have some privacy … alone … time … LET ME GO MASTURBATE OK?!

But seriously, I won’t be very active during the week and half i’ll be stateside … but i’ll write you all an article revealing the details afterwards … simply because it’ll be nice to share with you all xD

Until next time, this is -

The man of Integri … who am I kidding, i’m just a joker really



John Killah
John Killah Day 2,130, 15:20

First denied because I'm a Super Saiyan bitches!

Drew Blood
Drew Blood Day 2,131, 05:29


saraht0ga Day 2,130, 15:23

Second claimed because kamehameHAAAA

Rico Mc.Rico
Rico Mc.Rico Day 2,130, 15:24

Glad to see you back man! 😃

Mr. Wonka
Mr. Wonka Day 2,130, 15:29

yay, you are back John_Killah 🙂

Black Baroness
Black Baroness Day 2,130, 15:30

v+s Welcome back JK \o/ 🙂

Hale26 Day 2,130, 15:30

Woah. I just sent that PM before reading this lol.

I'm pyshic, John. Psyhic I tell you.
(Or however that's spelled)

Also, glad to see you back mate.

Paul Proteus
Paul Proteus Day 2,130, 17:04

I sincerely doubt that Hale is psychic

Alexander Atem
Alexander Atem Day 2,130, 17:44

He is not psychic, cause he went to the Future O.O

Hale26 Day 2,130, 17:50

Psychic; Yes
Decent grasp of basic spelling; No

The supernatural have no need for your petty "spellings" and "vocabulary". Why speel when you can shoot lazers outta your eyes and predict the future?

Legolas555 Day 2,130, 15:36

welcome back JK


Trogdorthetroll100 Day 2,130, 17:53

I hope you find what you seek in your return

emdoublegee Day 2,130, 17:57

Agreed! That's the same boat I'm in brother!

Strength and Honour

redbirdusa Day 2,130, 21:36

Welcome back and best self interview I ever read.

John Killah
John Killah Day 2,131, 07:55

Now you mentioned it, it does look like that doesn't it xD Never occurred to me when I was writing this :3

Malarkey83 Day 2,130, 22:30

Welcome back JK!

John Largo
John Largo Day 2,131, 04:00


Drew Blood
Drew Blood Day 2,131, 05:30

Welcome back...!

Thedillpickl Day 2,131, 08:08



Arrden Day 2,131, 08:26

Voted. Have to go through the darkness to come into the light.

eAmerican politics is a pyramid scheme.

Lemon Vodka
Lemon Vodka Day 2,131, 09:00

Did you just interview yourself?

jmurrib21 Day 2,131, 10:50

Voted. Good to have you back.

MazzyCat Day 2,131, 22:48

/me puts out cookies

Meow! ♥

jonkastrioti Day 2,132, 00:54

o/ welcome back

Rex Ormunde
Rex Ormunde Day 2,132, 02:43

Personally, I have less issues with the people in the game, and more issues with the game itself. Buuuut, my "alternative" pretty much ruined itself so here I am... still... dropping as much damage as I can when I can. 😛

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