The Best Laid Plans
Aeriadne
I came back. I learned the lay of the land. Got my finger back on the pulse.
And I made a plan.
I laid out a roadmap to be followed.
I had fallbacks, ideas, I was ready.
And then I got sick.
I got very sick.
And for a week I was feverish and waiting on test results if it was covid.
It thankfully was not.
But then I got hopeless.
The mind spirals into bad places, and given how precarious my position had been, it didn't take as much to topple me as I thought.
And a week of sitting quietly screaming and crying in my apartment did nothing to abate that.
And then the familiar sense set in.
One I've become accustomed to over many years with this game.
Failure.
I had, yet again, failed.
I was not a man. I was a mouse.
But it didn't matter.
I wanted to give a memorable month, I wanted to be something, to inspire, to uplift.
I couldn't even take care of myself.
And I was too ashamed to admit to you all by the time that sense of failure had set in that I was a failure, yet again.
I know this game doesn't mean much.
It never did.
But you all meant more than it ever had.
And I'm sorry I failed you.
To the USWP: I will not be seeking reelection. I've half a mind to resign on the spot. Let me know what you wish me to do.
To the people who cared about my writing: I'm sorry. I gave it my best shot. Maybe I'll write more. Right now I need to get over myself and my sense of loss.
I'm sure some of you will or have already said "I told you so." You're not wrong. I wish you were, but that isn't the world we occupy.
To those who'd like to say it's okay, it's not that big of a deal, I know.
I'm still sorry anyways.
If I come back again, it won't be with any promises of grandeur. I hope that when I do, I'll finally be able to just vibe, and sit, and appreciate being here with you all without feeling like I have to do something.
Just friends, gathered around the dying digital embers.
Until then...
Stay safe.
Stay strong.
Comments
#TB4CP
pants = penis prison!
No problemo.
Just make sure you stick around.
Keep the game fun.
Life happens my friend. Don't beat yourself up.
Glad you are well.
I love you, Aramec. #DeliciousMeatsForever
I love you man. Welcome back. Hope you feel better
You could always... fuck around and seek reelection anyways 👀👀👀
solid plan
this game is wildly less important than doing what is best for you. Nobody should care what is or is not accomplished, all that matters is you were around and it was fun. Hope you stay around some, I love you and miss you when you're gone.
This game is better with you in it. Whether its for a month, a week or an hour. Cheers my dude. Take care of yourself.
all I have ever cared about is you. Not what you can do for me or the game. take care of you. I love you
I love you
Me too ❤
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You can only do what you can. You tried and it didn't work out like you wanted, but you tried, that is what is needed. Take your time and be there when you are ready. Cheers!
Let's trade nudes
You gotta make sure you are #1 and taking care of yourself buddy!!!! No worries.
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