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You might've noticed I've made a couple changes.

When I first made my real profile, Athanaric, I got that name from the first king of the Visigoths. I chose that name as well especially because Emerick was a big hero and influence of mine at the time. And, unfortunately, because of how I played, that name took on a lot of associations, many of which were negative. It was understandable. And after a time, I moved on.

But that didn't last very long.

When I made this account, I wanted to divorce it from my former associations. I pretended I was a new player. And so I needed a new name to fit. Keeping with the A theme - a letter I love - I went with Aramec, which is a modified form of one of the names of a specific star in Arabic. I worked harder on that profile, and tried to make something of myself. I went through a couple of shifts in avatars as well.

I initially had it as Bane from The Dark Knight Rises, because I was planning on using this account for more mischief. But I had a change of heart before I came back, and decided to be Ser Jorah Mormont. I kept that and messed around with Jesse Pinkman eventually. And that's where I kind of held for a while.

Until I was elected POTUS.

Then, finally, it felt right to come back as my old Belkar persona.

But neither of those 100% ever sat fully right with me. Conflating a persona I felt and many felt was problematic with my new accomplishments. I was a person of two histories.

And now, it becomes three.

I came out online as a trans woman earlier this month, just after I rejoined the game, actually. I'd been agender for a year, but I'd finally come to terms with my womanhood. And I'll admit, it was nice coming back here and seeing everyone, and slipping back into that old Aramec role.

But it hasn't felt quite right either.

I've felt even more of a disconnect than I thought, even than I admitted at the time. And as the month has gone on, and I've thought about what I want to do, and sort of get back into the swing of things and actually start making plans for the future, I came to this decision today.

Aramec is dead.

He was good. He was smart. And he was a damn fun time.

But now, Aeriadne lives. And she is feeling energized, and excited, and she's ready to try some new things.

So.

Two chapters closed, and now a new one to build. A fresh start, a fresh face, a new me.

Hi everyone. It's good to be here.