Let go of her... Chapter 1
Kunal Grover
My eyes were glued to her WhatsApp profile, her simple yet beautiful status "
😉" (yes, a wink), the phone number, she went offline, leaving my eyes silently brimming with tears.. It seemed as if, something, something stuck deep inside was trying to attain freedom, and the only path it could find was through... tears.. As the screen turned watery, and words disappeared in the mysterious water droplets charged with emotion of sadness, millions of thoughts raced my mind, "why the hell I did something like this?!", "how could you, Moksh?!", "with her?.. why, I ask?" all those were gradually turning to tears..
I've gotten too far I believe, I feel I should begin from the very beginning of all this.. Akin to any other immature high school infatuation, or so-called "love story", mine was no different, yet it taught me lessons of a lifetime.. I'm grateful for that.. It was fate or Him, who meant all this without me being aware, to teach me something, which I never would've felt deeply otherwise..
Flashbacked to the beginning of the session of the 9th grade, sanskrit section, the only one, and the quite reputed for being the most intelligent, I looked around, the classroom was filled with toppers! I glanced at the girl, woah, she's here too! I didn't thought she'd take up Sanskrit! Well, I still somewhat remember the time (a bit blurry though), three years back, when she was in the same section, I fell for her, though I never approached her or talked to her, I still fell.. I was undergoing hormonal changes then, and it was my first crush.. I don't know why I had a crush on her, but I'm pretty sure that was just physical attraction, those moments flashbacked like a film in my brain, how I could never gather the courage to at least talk to her.. Maybe I regretted the time, but I don't know, okay! I sighed, but, I never would have guessed what life had in store for me..
Fastforward a month, days before the summer vacation, Friday I believe, yes, Friday, after recess, I was preparing for the vocal music class just after, when she passed by me and with a warming smile, "Hi Moksh!". Well, I was quite taken aback, with whom I've never talked with, suddenly comes up and greets me! Quite nervously, without making it obvious that I'm nervous, I greeted her back.. 'Moksh, get outta here fast, don't want the situation becoming akward', I spoke to myself (in thoughts obviously!), and laughing and enjoying with a crazy friend I left for the musical lesson.. Feeling happy (deeply)..
🙂
In the days that followed, she greeted me beautifully whenever she saw me.. Those moments are something I long for now.. Those greetings just, stole my heart.. I felt, something was being revived.. They were so touching, it's difficult to express them in words, I so wish I could I show you the flashback!
I somehow managed the summer vacation.. Days after, it appeared as if it became a habit for us to greet each other whenever.. we saw each other... My eyes went looking for her as a routine, just to capture the moment I had seen so many times now.. Though we never talked out of those moments, I think we still managed to suffice each other with a few words daily.. I feel I'm going on and on about the way she greeted me, but it was something I cannot forget, they played an important role in how we met each other and finally talked!
I was never really close with girls, in fact, I rarely even talked to a few, though I was chivalrous to a great extent, I just felt.. it easier to talk to your brothers (talking about guy friends here!) (about anything), also, I had a poor history when talking to girls about making things awkward, so, naturally, I avoided all that stuff..
Though a problem existed, no brainer, it had to, the girl was really close and upfront to boys (which made me long for her even more!), and they all were popular and smart-looking! I thank her though, she gave me a friend of a lifetime (more on that later).. Anyways, there was this guy she was really close to, often sat with him, and I got quite positive vibes from her that she somewhat liked him.. I felt I should just give up, I'm never gonna get her anyway! I don't know why, but I had a somewhat hi-hello friendship with that guy, and I now sought to improve that since he was in my section.. I remember it with a blur, but maybe I entered the friendship for my selfish personal interests.. to get close to her...
Fastforwarding, something amazing and unexpected happened, the guy was really excellent in football (as goalie) and sports, he was out playing a match on the school ground, and one nice morning, as we were watching him, she was there too, a few of our friends tried to tease her, "Look, Ayush is playing there!", "That yellow t-shirt, that is Ayush", surprise coming from me, I took part in that too.. 'What the hell?! Why am I saying all this?! Why?', I thought, and she quite blushing left the ground.. 'What would've she thought of me...?'
After the recess, she came to me, this time, with an expression of, 'How the hell did you know all this?!', but yet her eyes shined brightly and beautifully attracting me..
"Moksh, the thing what all was happening in the morning, what was that?"
I, unsure of what to say, couldn't speak out..
"I'm waiting for an answer, how did you know about this, Mansi told you this?" (Mansi was her best friend)
I spoke up, "I figured it out somehow.." I tried to say, 'I had a crush on you since 6th grade.. that's the reason I figured it out!', I felt she understood me, but the teacher entered and asked everyone to settle down.
When the ending bell rang, she charged towards me, my heart beating, felt it would come out! "Uh, can I talk to you today..? On WhatsApp, or call? Whatever you choose works fine with me.."
"Of-of course...", the words achieved freedom from my thoughts..
Returning home, I was quite upset.. Reason: I felt I made her upset.. Didn't knew what was coming up, something, am really grateful for..
🙂It earned me so much self-confidence, and it was the reason, or better say foundation, on which the structure of this immature love story was built upon..
To Be Continued..
Yours truly,
Kunal..
Comments
wow!!! I'll be waiting for part 2
Such Love Much Wow !!
Is it your story Kunal?
Its magnificent...
🙂
Yes, yatan.. Glad to know you liked it.. 🙂
Actually I was writing a story myself too.
But for some reasons couldn't complete it.
BTW waiting for the next part eagerly, do PM with the link when you publish the next part...
🙂
I skipped. Too long.
TLDR??
To capture the essence of the story, it's nice if you read it in full.. 🙂
What is "opti mama"?!
Optimus Prime.. an old player.. who is a complete noob..
arent u opti ?
Lol, me, an old player? haha, am 9 month old bro, btw, I hope you don't mean to say that I am complete noob, coz that won't be true.. 🙂 You know it! 😉
Too long to read. 😃
I am one of the several dead players in erep. Not that old though.. 😃
Kunal.. I was defining Opti mama 😛
U are exp.. He is a noob 😛
opti mama?
VInayak? 😃
Opti mama ??!!
yes, my dear?
Will wait for next part.
Thanks
Lovely read ! \m/
reminds me of my damn confusing high school. but it was all part of the experience and fun.
no regretz \m/
great article o7 looking forward to next.
Sounds like it's star-crossed; either take her and run; or keep it totally private and avoid facebook at all costs.
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What a cliffhanger!
My Bro will become a bestselling love story Author!
I spent a long time reading your story, was so engrossed and made it a point to read all the descriptions! I like when stuff is described this way. In fact when I tell or write a story this is the way I do it. I didnt understand why you were teasing her with the goalie though, you said you liked her.
btw early on even I was like you speaking mostly to guys in school, maybe somewhat shy of speaking to girls but later on it all changed. Now I'm surrounded by girls and I have more girl friends than guy friends (I'm not talking of my cabinet 😛) Girls yearn for a good guy friend for support (read guy and not gay XD)
Overall great story! Good start by MoIA in generating activity.
Thanks so much! Was awaiting your comment, hehe 😉
Well, I subtly teased her, even I have difficulty in understanding today the reason I blurted those words out then, I feel maybe it was because I felt that I'd not get her anyway coz of the goalie, and everyone around was teasing her, I didn't wanted others around to know, so I went with flow, partially to get pleasure (I know that's not right), and partially as I wanted to forget her as someone I liked..
Well, chapters ahead will unveil a lot, and all I'll write is what I really experienced and what is reality..
Eagerly awaiting the rest of the chapters...good way of building suspense!
the elevation of the worth of a person through their outer appearance . i hope you guys also have the beard thing going on as else the feminine can become more pronounced.
Wow Kunal ! Spoken from the heart and full of emotion, fantastic 😃 Best stories are those that come from within which you have shown.
It's crazy the things we do when infatuation takes the better of us. I guess it's the natural instinct of the male and we do anything, often irrational to fight for the one we adore 🙂 I look forward to the next part.
😃 lol takes me back decades into the foggy mist that I think is school! 🙂 If you keep writing such anecdotes, I'm sure people will stick around in the game just to read your daily diaries 😛
You got good story telling skills! Try improving your grammar, it'd help a lot. Also, don't waste your talent on romantic nonsense.
Thank you! Well, yeah, I know I lack a bit in that aspect, but am constantly trying to improve my English, I read a lot, am trying to learn, hopefully it will improve in the upcoming days.. 🙂 Well, I like romantic stories, and it's an aspect where am able to write from the heart.. Ofc I like other genres too, but I like romantic/sensitive/dramatic stories the best.. 🙂