A true introduction

Day 2,655, 18:12 Published in Ukraine Netherlands by Mata

First of all, I will be writing in English only, if you would need a translation you could ask any Ukrainian person that knows either Russian or Ukrainian depending on your language of choice, everything will be explained in this article, thanks for taking the time to read.


As there was an article made about me and I don't feel like it actually tells anything about who I really am, I have finally made time to write an article and share everything that I will be able to share without actually feeling unsettled when reading it myself, also I will tell some more private stuff as I guess I need to after the article that I didn't feel right about, otherwise it will still be rather confusing, it's not totally complete though, but it shows everything I would be able to with just giving myself a few hours of writing.
There will be some things I rather do not share, the article might be harder to read because of it, but I want to make sure that people know what I think is private, some things I think can be shared, some are private, that's life. 😉
I will make an article about my eRepublik activities another time, I think this is the first step of introducing myself.
Also more information about myself might be published in a future article



So this is who I am:

22 years ago I was born at Zaporozhye, Ukraine.(or Zaporizhia, Запорі́жжя or whatever other way it's possible to write)
I can't remember all details anymore, but I lived 6 years at an orphanage as of the death of my biological mother, I do not know who is my actual dad or why I don't remember him, I didn't ever went on a search to find out and neither do I still want to.
At the age of 6 I was adopted and eventually taken over to The Netherlands.
I didn't learn the Cyrillic script when I lived at Ukraine, so I only know the Latin script which is used for both English and Dutch, I know both Ukrainian and Russian by speech, but I am unable to use this on the internet, I do not own a microphone and don't see any need to buy one at this moment.
(I am female for those wondering, yes, one of the few on the internet, have heard the comment a lot since first entering the internet 12 years ago.)

I do not want to tell about the time I arrived at The Netherlands, as it includes memories of multiple forms of discrimination, I do not believe this group of people show the way every Dutch person thinks, as there have been great number of respectful Dutch people too, but it has been a cruel time for me so I don't want to explain what happened in detail.

To date there has been happening a lot in my life, I have had good times and bad times, but the bad times eventually have overthrown me being able to think positive.
The things that happened with a great effect on my daily life are related to my diagnoses with Epilepsy, selective mutism, ADHD and Posttraumatic stress disorder, all the things that happened that are related with those have made major changes needed in my personal life.(Details are private)

I don't want to be falling asleep while writing, so everything between arriving and now will either be posted as an article some other time or can actually be asked by sending me a private message, I started writing at night, I need to have time left to sleep before it is morning.

As for the reason that I dislike the article today, it's no secret that I dislike it anyway, it could be seen as a negative thing to do, but I think it's currently useful to do:

When I was younger I sponsored a girl in an African country, the way things were at that moment I made the decision to not share it with my adoptive family and my friends.
After a few months there was someone who noticed papers of the sponsorship lying around at my room, I was in a hurry that morning and forgot to put them away so no one would actually see them.
The person who noticed actually went telling my friends and my adoptive family, they went ballistic because of me not sharing what I did and thought it was stupid I kept things secret from them.
I did not see it as keeping a secret, I thought it as something that I wanted to keep private, I did not see any reason for it to be a real big deal, I guess I was wrong...
This went on for long, actually over 1 year, they kept saying awful things to me as I didn't share it, I actually went socially awkward because of it and have had huge problems because of it.
After this happened back then I stopped the sponsorship because of the horrible reactions I got, I was very sad when I did so.
I have chosen to not get back in friendly contact with my adoptive parents, I do speak them sometimes, but it's never pleasant when this happens, also if this happens once a month it's a lot.

My life even got worse after it...
In 2014 I actually lived at the streets myself for 2 months, I would still be if I didn't get the help of a guy, same age as me, who accepted me without thinking.
I rebuild my life and the first nice thing I did was starting the sponsorship to an Ukrainian boy, it's the one thing I actually feel the most happy about in my whole life and is also the actual reason why I started doing charity work myself, as the improvements actually showed me how much you can change with just giving some money, which might look small to you, but helps a lot to people that have a hard life like him.
I feel like the boy I sponsor needed help as he lived in poverty and had an hard life, I wanted to help him, I do not want to be liked because of it, as that's not what I think it is about, I think you should do something because you feel right about it, not because others do, if you help someone because others give nice reactions if you would, I don't think you do it for the person/people you help, but only to feel good yourself, that isn't what I think charity is about.

I have done more than only helping the boy, they have been done anonymous, as I think it's not needed to feel better yourself if you voluntary give someone something, the only who should be happy is the one getting helped, they get what they actually deserve, a chance on a better life, which I actually think everyone deserves, the chance of being able to do something great with your life.
That is also why I don't like promoting yourself with a charity attached to your name, you either think about the people you help or you think about yourself, I don't see a way that you could do both in a fair way!



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The only real thing left that I want to tell are my current activities.

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I currently take care of a 11 year old girl, this I do on the request of her parents, she and her family have been friends of me for quite some time already, I couldn't currently deny the request, but it does take all the power I have on a day, it makes me currently more unstable when I react to people.(further details are private)

Also I am making plans of moving, it is currently not clear yet to where, but the plans currently might be going to a foreign country, no choice has been made yet.

And I have just send out a message to start up sponsorship for yet another child, I think the things that happened the past few days both at eRepublik as in my real life have made it rather clear to me that I totally think every child that is being helped is one less who has a hard life and has chance of being able to enjoy life in all ways someone wants.
I think sponsorship of children has most effect, but I do agree with people who say sponsorship for students and elderly are just as important.

I currently do more things, but they are boring to tell, like reading books and such, people may always talk to me if they really want to know anything, so I will not tell those boring details at this article.

So this is my first introduction, it is not complete or having a great layout, but I will try to improve when I will write new articles.
I hope everyone enjoys reading and learns a bit about who I am!

With love,
Mata


Any information missing is because of writing it while actually being tired, not having lots of time and already being nighttime, I did think it was useful to write my introduction today instead of another time.