How do I feel to be Colonel?

Day 2,869, 12:05 • Published in Belgium Czech Republic • by Rhual


I always was full with ambition in this game in the past several years I played. I'm that kind of person who always wanted to reach everything, wanted to be involved everywhere, wanted to be on the top, wanted to be known in every part of this game, who always cared about the statistics, who loved to make military plans in any ways. And I voiced it many times because it's a good feeling to earn acknowledgments after your performance, isn't it? It's a kind of egoism to be on focus, otherwise I feel myself a little bit bad... Country/alliance politics, BH/CH hunting, still being in the top of strenght, etc, doesn't matter where... If needed, I spent lots of time to achieve what I wanted. I liked to talk about it.

I never felt it wrong. Talking about me. This kept me alive, this made me to continue the game. For the reasons above. For the feeling to be someone. Not just to be a simply soldier. Because I loved it all. And admins know it well. They made advantages of these kind of people. Some of them became big tanks in short way. Lots of money in short way. We all know it. We all cry because of the old memorable times and because the game is dying.

But what can we do against it? Many of us gave ideas that admins could make the game better with. Some of them realized, I sometimes believed they care about the community. But most of the times they followed their own and unnecessary features and didn't give much fuck about the real problems.

So we cannot do anything else than waiting the end of this misery. It's obviously clear that the game won't be shut down till it's still profitable.

I became tired of this. Since I know that the eRep lab staff reduced and they practically officially don't invest any cent to improve the game comprehensively. Since my friends are leaving. In the last 2 month I was just 2clicking and had time to think what to do. First of all I always was and am still loyal to my given words. So I won't waste my real life because of the game so highly I did before. And because I have serious real life plans, I give 1 more year to the game and after I might leave.

Because this game is not interesting anymore towards me.

But till that time, I celebrate this achievement, because being Colonel in BH medals is something (5 golds at least).


How do I feel to be Colonel?

I feel nothing. Thanks to Plato