Join the new world

Prošle su mi godine bez nas
a sa nama u meni
Moja se nada umorila
čekajući da shvatiš
da jedan i jedan nekada nisu dva
i ja sam je pustila da se utopi u sebi
ovaj put
bez da sam okom trepnula -
- premorila su i mene odavno
njena bezuspešna samoubistva
Na čekanja stavljam tačku
veličine omanjeg sunca
i slavim svoju novostečenu slobodu
Ne čekam više nikoga i ništa
Okrećem na ražnju sopstveno telo
ne bih li u njemu sagorela
sve tvoje tragove
da me ne vrate i ne sete
da nas je ikada bilo
u večnim nepostojanjima
u ovde i sada
u juče
i u sutra
Neću stati
Neka ga plameni jezici ližu
sve dok mi katran ne krene kroz uši
dok mi zagrljaj ne izgubi oblik tvog tela
a glava ne ostane potpuno prazna
dok mi noge ne izgube želju za daljinom
a oči boju
i utroba potpuno ne zaboravi
kako boli tvoje neprisustvo
Gostiću se njime dok potpuno ne izgubi ukus tvojih usana
a kada stignem do srca
rasporiću ga i samlevenog razbacati
po stazi koja ne vodi nikuda
Neka da crni đavo skupi i odnese
kada ga ti nisi želeo

- Sabina Embeli

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My years passed without us
and with us in me
My hope got tired
waiting for you to understand
that one and one are sometimes not two
and I let her drown in herself
this time
without blinking the eye -
- I've been tired for too long
of her unsuccessful suicides
On "waitings" I'm putting a dot(period)
the size of the smaller sun
and I celebrate my newly gained freedom
I'm no longer waiting for anyone or anything
I'm turning on skewer my own body
trying to burn all your traces in it
so they don't come back and remind me
that we have ever been
in eternal nonexistences
in here and now
in yesterday
and in tomorrow
I will not stop
I'll let the fire tongues lick it
until tar don't start to go out through my ears
my embrace don't lose the shape of your body
and my head remain completely empty
until my legs don't lose their desire for distance
and my eyes don't lose color
and the womb completely forget
how painful is your unpresence
I will regale myself with it until it completely loses the taste of your lips
and when I reach to my heart
I'll rip it and throw it grinded out
on a path that does not lead anywhere
Let the black devil gather it and take it away
when you did not wanted it

- Sabina Embeli