MY MOST BEAUTIFUL DREAM

Day 2,322, 07:03 • Published in Serbia Serbia • by CHRISTIANE.F
Rain , already soaked for days and tried to wash away all the filth of the city . Im walking down the street , it's cold .. Just simply looking around what is going on ... somewhere in the distance, the sky and the earth are connected . , While cold raindrops are falling over my face . I thought, well this is great , it's wonderful ... but only at the moment ... as soon as I looked around , I saw that same dirt that can not be washed.

Actually to be honest the whole time I thought of you , of course , so I wander far far away .. so far away that I did not noticed that a lot of people swear from their comfortable and warm car .. I did not even care …… But at a moment ……………

I yell * You old monkey I 'm here in the rain here , go drop dead somewhere * or perhaps something worse .. I can not remember.

I try to explain myself , why I so easily let you take away my heart .. already I have a bunch of my thoughts in your head , but it all ends up on that I was again thinking about you .

Are you somewhere safe and dry or somewhere 're getting wet under the same gray sky .... I wonder?

Entering the tram and again panic attack ... now what go to the house? ... Well for years some thinks do not change . Oh yes .... but now I'm in the tram and I think about control man ofcorse I do not have ticket but still do not whant to fight about it, .....

I snap out of it again at the moment when a woman ask me * Child Are you all right , come sit * . It was only then I noticed that the next station is my . * I said no thanks, this here is my station now , but thank you * .... If she did not started with this stupid questions I maybe missed my station . ?


The house I * finally * there it is , the room is dark .. I do not turn the lights on and throw it in the bed .
Now, again alone in the silence . Hundred of hours watching in the ... totally dark space , because , as soon as I start to think about us and everything nice about you I start to think how ... I m fooling myself .

I get scared than because what once was beautiful dream is becoming something that looks more like nightmare….

Ofcorse one more time you do not answer the phone , it's ... I evebetter I think . But at one moment I just get out of my bed , Yes a hot shower to wash away all this city dirt off me ..... this must help

Yes finally im in my nighty and a warm bed ....my eyes are closed ... I feel your touch and your kisses .. well I remember them .. I feel you all over .. like you're here to love and cuddle .. until you fall asleep .

Yet at the end it was unfortunately just a beautiful dream .




Thank you for keep me save in the dreams ......... soon I hope that the dream will come true….

some day we will learn

Chrissy.f