Miracles

Day 2,940, 08:10 • Published in Cyprus Cyprus • by Mithrantir

My diary:

Day 415.

Dear Diary,
it's more than a year now that I keep writing. Today it's the 15th of December. A cold morning in London. People were happy for the upcoming Christmas' holidays. You could feel that everywhere. People laughing and be chat able more than usual. Oxford street was decorated once more. Thousands of small lights, Santa Claus everywhere. But outside a well known toy shop in the region, they decorated a really nice sleigh. It was a gold elegant one. In addition they added the reindeers. First as usual it was Rudolph. A magnificent, realistic reindeer with a red nose standing there. I still remember it because it was amazing. People were stopping by to take photos. I passed it without paying attention to people.

I am heading once more to the usual coffee house to buy my cappuccino with cinnamon. The girl there remembers me so she has my coffee ready the moment she sees me. She is a good girl. A guy next to the cashier is eating his croissant bibbling. Not a nice habit from people...

I am heading back home. I am walking mechanically. Thoughts and memories once more come back to my mind. I thought I could forget those things by now... but how?
My computer is on. I log in to the game that keeps me company the last year. The name of it is erepublik. I can say that it's a good game to keep you company. There are people who you can talk with. Battles, articles. You can buy stashes like war stash, combat stash and others. You gain currency, gold, you can fight with weapons and bazookas. Countries fight each other by proposing Natural enemy to each other. Soldiers are split into Military units and regiments. But is not life. That's why i am writing you this for the first time.

You see my dear diary I am trying to recover. Some people from this game know and they are trying to help me stay strong. People behind screens can be friendly and protective. Some others though look really mean... they are trying to harm you even in a game... if only they knew.

Another day was coming to an end. Another ordinary day. I went out for some grocery shopping. Still haunted by thoughts. A big why was above any other. Why you left me so soon? Why do I have to face this cruel world alone? it's over a year now since you are gone and I still can't find my answers. Papers are once more wet. I promised not to cry but I fail to keep that promise my love.

But now I am crying because I finally got my answers. I won't tell you, my dear diary, what happen out there. But it looks that miracles do happen. So i want to close my diary with this. I know that you can and you will read them.
You said you wanted me to fall in love again... remember what I told you? I was wrong. Maybe one day I will, but there are all kinds of love out there. This is my one and only life. You were my life. And it's a great and terrible and short and endless thing. And none of us come out of it alive. I don't have a plan except that it's time to start living again. Thank you for your amazing gift. Even now.

Miracles do happens. I was lucky and blessed to see one. Life goes on. So do I now. Keep an eye on me from up there my love. I am living again for you.
Miracles do happen. Maybe it's because of Christmas.
Thank you.
Yours till the end.
This is the last day for you as well my dear Diary. Thank you.
Time to turn my page.


ps. Hope you like it guys. I wrote a sad story but i guess it's something different than usual things 🙂

Wish me good luck 🙂

Mithrantir