[Ashwamedh] Win Some Lose Some And Then ...
Ind1anMartyr
Its one of the many weekends I have had since I got old enough to realise the importance of weekends! 🙂
and here, just before I go to sleep (tanked with some truly impeccable Scotch) I decide to sign in and do what perhaps is more deeply ingrained than I thought! Yep, it means an article with hardly any pictures (cos my thoughts usually flow pretty fast and also cos its boring to try and figure out which of the google images will suit this!)
Let's go back in time, shall we? (not that far back! just till my previous article) That was the day when I finally had enough and actually did lose total interest in the game. You see I'm extremely passionate about what I do and wear my heart on my sleeve. I trust and believe everyone I meet (I'm an optimist and feel the glass is ALWAYS half full) ... so when my trust turns out to be misplaced, its bitter and I blame myself for being naive at this age!
Curiously, that actually is what brings me onto this article and why I do come back in bursts. I feel there are some truly mature players around and I also feel there are some young 'uns who could perhaps benefit from the input of a middle aged man who has been through the wars 🙂
(figuratively of course!)
Let me not make this a wall of text (apologies if it already is, please do not bother to read further if you think so!) ... let me get to something interesting...something that keeps my faith in fellow humans alive despite all that I have experienced. Ironically its been MMOs that have been the second most important influence in shaping who I am (the first and foremost being travelling)
Has anyone ever felt that it would be amazing to perhaps meet someone you don't know, who's down on his luck... and you change his life completely? I know its a rare thing and perhaps only a handful ever think beyond their own lives, but for those that do, this is a story about 2 remarkable people who never knew how amazing they were ...
2007 -
I used to play a 3D MMO called A3. I was a lowly knight and barely had time to level up my character or develop any serious skills. The game was ruled by little kids or older kids who ran cyber cafes and made a profit selling their characters or unique items. I felt out of place but still enjoyed the awesome levels and various effects. Goes without saying that higher level dudes were serious PK (player kill) addicts but thankfully with me having hardly any ambition, I would not really care and get pked pretty often 😃
One of these "high level" guys suddenly decided to stand by me and gave me immunity without knowing me and without me ever asking. Reason? cos I did not back down... I would always get pked but would come right back and still fight .. for me it was fun anyway!
We got closer and he would help me level up despite me protesting. Came a time when it would be 2 am and he and me would be one of the few awake in a raiding party and we would get chatting. Turned out reality was totally different! He was like my ingame character in real life - struggling for a job and to survive, while I was an old fuddy ... seemingly "got it made"
He was desperate to do something but had no "qualifications" (read - certificates) and no one was willing to trust him. Long story short, I trusted him, helped him get a job in Adobe after which he just took off. He never looked back and I was so proud of the fact that he proved my judgement of his character correct. I was the only one who trusted him and he did it!
PS : Based on a query - let me clarify..
a. I got him a job in Adobe India
b. He was so awesome, he worked hard and progressed all on his own
C. Got to a mid level post, went on a holiday to Goa.
d. Met a Belarusian girl on the beach who he saved from some goons. (yep sounds unbelievable but its true)
e. Got married 6 months ago and is now happy in Minsk (cos she cannot come down, turns out she is pretty rich!)
PPS : I did not do ANYTHING beyond give him his start - he did it all on his own 🙂
Im NOT the hero ... HE IS!
2013 - Where is he now? Currently in Minsk, a Belarusian citizen, married to a Belarusian girl and happy with life.... and I'm glad we stay in touch.
2009 - erepublik - I met an awesome man who had some serious leadership ability ... some serious mind blowing talent ... but who was frittering his life away. He had no faith in himself and very little self respect left. Alll he needed was for someone to show him his true potential.
It took time but Im glad he is almost halfway there 😃
oh he is doing wonderfully well with his family BUT he hasnt even begun to achieve what he can. I know he will go a long way 😃
Thats about it for my stupid stories, guess I just had to get them out here where people would read and perhaps do the same to others. Its in us to change the world... yes, I got betrayed by people - WHY? cos i believed in them being good.. many times over. Do I regret it? No, I do not truly...I feel sorry for them and I feel thankful that it at least made me realise this game with its STRENGTH and BOMBS and ROCKETS means squat. No, I treasure true humans and good friends and no longer stay slave to a game that I sympathised with, until it started cannibalising itself with its desire to garner riches. Thankfully at least 10% of the community is decent and this is my ode to them.
Thank you all (if you managed to read all the way down till here!) I request you to please help Sam - he feels lost, having to do too many tasks on his own. For everyone else, always have faith, you are destined to be BRILLIANT... believe in yourself and do not fall into falsehood or malpractice. Even if you try and justify it saying "its just a game" it becomes part of your real life... it corrupts your soul. When you spend hours on a game and end up doing ANYTHING to lie and cheat and justify yourself , it means you have already corrupted yourself and your false assurances are just an illusion - a bubble you make for yourself.
Be true to the game and to real life - you never know how amazing your true friends can be.
Maybe my sermon perhaps affected one person out of the probable 10 readers... I hope it did cos MMOs are closer to real life than you may think! (take it from a veteran!)
Jai Hind.. and never stop believing in the GOOD we humans can do! o/
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PS : I came not for the game but for some people I remember and some I hope I can make a differenc ein their lives.
(I also wrote this article cos when I have had scotch and feel there is something left unsaid, its usually erep... cos in my real life, I am satisfied and happy... weird!)
So in effect I might login again next weekend (depends if Im boozed or not) but Im like one of those talking philosophic brains (though not as bad as Marius) that Dr. Frankenstein would keep in his jars (and never use!)
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The last article you wrote got Navin and me talking and we believe, there are some of us who just cant quit this game. However much we try we will keep coming back.
I have seen a Number of gamers who have quit this sort of games, but only when they find a better one. I have done it myself.
All I have to say is(sermonizing, at the risk of being misunderstood, yet again) : If you do come back, you dont need to justify it.....If you dont come back, you dont need to justify it either! People who do respect you, will do so without judging you!
you would ve seen a lot of gamers quit but the truth is they are always here 😉 just they are too tired to show up sooner or later 🙂
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thanks JS... Hope you read through all the way bro ; )
Of course i read all the way through. 😛
I never miss your articles.
Will miss you.
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1. This is the most decent comunity I know in eR.
2. Great advice for youngsters: "Be true to the game and to real life - you never know how amazing your true friends can be."
^ allways what is in our minds became reality, because reality is what we make it to be.
Thanks for passing by, old friend.
Btw, it is another feeling I got in this game/experience: You came to know nice souls (like you, and many others) and then, like in RL, they go where life call them. Sure, it is a payn and sorrow you fell, but then, you are glad they escaped the adiction of this Second Life and hope they will, hoppefully, achieve much more in them RL.
Best regards !
Marius mate you are amazing... ou are an ambassador for what Indians should be : ) your words humble me (and i dont mean it without feeling) Many a times I wish you would be there with me when we go on a trek to see the mountains speak in their silence. Maybe this november you will be? : P
PS : yes they go ... drift away but then so do a million other people... perhaps we were not destined to make the connection - dont you think many a times, destiny is like the hyper sirngs of quantum mechanics - that many people you thhink you know, just pass by while those you never meet face to face, stay in the consciousness? many a times a blood brother is diamterically opposite while you find solace in a friend who is more like a blood brother but has no relation to you? THIS my friend is the essence of energy - maybe I was associated with these guys in some way in the past but never realised it? maybe we all are intertwined... but only in select groups... bunches... what I mean is that one person can only take say 10 connections... and no more!
I meant hyper strings - sorry for the typo!
Now, this is just another reason I miss the talks with you. Wierd we talk more here than through eMail or so, and ... I dare to say, we are more true in this game/ alternate reality.
I also belive you are right, we couldfind out such conexions, like you say but then ... sometimes we are not aware of them or just realise after they went (link closed) because we tend to be so ocupied with our life's.
Yea - u know this game allows us to escape real life. When we do escape it, we are away from real life problems, THEN we seek out who we forgot/lost via this game and the time spent here. Sometimes dont u think this universe gives more peace? thats why I now indulge in it maybe once in a fortnight? I love my RL but sometimes you need to escape cos it stifles you!!
Also you know... weird as it may sound - a stupid game like this... allows you to dream of a world/universe away from what is true. What it does is basiclaly put you back in touch with your human side... you seek contact with like minded people. So you discover old true friends! in real life - you never look for like minded people. You do your job, then get back home and spend time with family and most often the family is NEVER of the same mind as you. (that paradoxically is what keeps families together) so we all need this shit.. to find an alternative forum! even if its rare
Deep, soI have to reflect to the truth of this words.But, I culd say I allready belive them.
I like this newspaper.It's not bad,isn't it.We encourage newbies to write more articles.
(old man,it's been long time,you look like a newborn baby to me😉 and we have a baby boom by the way)
Bulgaria has always been the best : D hahaha call me an old man... some day I will beat you in running (but that wil happen whejn you are maybe 40?) : P
I never run.I have a phobia.
But you can try!😉
I just like to observe you tend to have too much friends from south eastern Europe : ))
hahaha maybe they have so much more passion in life?? maybe they are more honest and open? : D more simple and fun : )
I would chastise you about the booze, but then I read it...and loved it.
Good to see you, even if you are a bit wobbly 🙂
thanks Grainne - u know I usually make more sense when Im drunk? (okay dont ask my daughter !!! ) : D long time no see missing you all!!! o/
yup sam doing hard work but he need more supports
o7
Ash, you truly are a great man everything said and done. I do not know if you remember or not but you did help me a lot three years ago! Back then I was just starting to get into web and game development and you not only helped me formulate my game ideas for potential investors you also helped me financially by buying some non specific stuff, which helped me get myself some servers and websites for the vast number of projects I have worked on since then! Not all have been successful projects but the vast amount of knowledge I got from them has been priceless and none of this would be possible if you did not encourage me and help me out back then. You truly are a great man 😁
lol i seriously dont remember, i think i have the beginning of alzheimer. But its very kind of you to remember me so : ) I never play games for hate... i play cos im curious and i wanna have feedback about ideas
Great Ash. Do come to erep with such priceless articles from time to time.
o7
😃 I read "through all the way"
A ship was once stuck in a storm.People lost hope,people began to jump until one day they saw a light.It was the sun indeed.But they looked back at how many died the number horrifying.Was it their fault?
Sorry for the quality,not a philosophy student.It was not their fault,but did they fight on?Yes because the human spirit in them was still alive.I respect that you have quitted,but why you can't leave is because the human spirit lives on in you 🙂
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I guess... the glass of scotch was full : D
Good to read ur article after a long time...
My faith in Humanity restored 🙂
All Hail to holy Scotch, *cheers*
o7 mate read all the way down i am a newbie but i just got the pulse of your feelings!!!!
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You have one devoted reader always.
No words to say.just a salute. /o7.
Hey.. U played a3? What was ur IGN? Mine was avadra!
lol i was a lowly knight... was Elysian. I only reached level 128 i think ...
I think i have seen u bro.. I was a non ele mage..